Place in This World

Ever feel like you're "spinning your wheels?"  This is me today.  And yesterday.  And... Oh okay I'll stop.

It's not that I'm not happy.  I'm quite happy and optimistic and looking forward because that's just what I do.

But some days it just feels like I'm running in a circle, like a gerbil on a wheel.  Hoping to jump off at some point, into some unknown "job," (which, hopefully, desperately, at some point will pay me some cash-money) where I will be satisfied and challenged and fulfilled and content.

Am I dreaming too big here?  If your answer is "yes," kindly refrain from telling me that.  As I'm sure you've noticed, I like to live in my happy dream world where things are pretty and manicured and sunshine-y.

So, as I've mentioned before, my life is reflected in the minds of some radio DJ who controls my Sirius XM radio.  Lately, I've been hearing certain songs A LOT.  A few that stand out are "Baby Girl" by Sugarland, "A Place in This World" by Taylor Swift and "Party Rock Anthem."

We're not going to talk about that last one, because I'm convinced my car is rigged with some system that tells the radio when that abysmal track is on and then repeatedly slams the melody into my brain.  I've said it once and I'll say it again- PLEASE, for the love, stop playing club music before 8 pm.

Sorry, I digress.  The point of this whole spiel is that "Baby Girl" is defining my life in literal ways, "Please Mom and Dad, please send money, I'm so broke that it ain't funny..."

Tell me about it sister.

But T-Swift just goes and does it again when I hear you singing about your place in this world.  First of all, I'd like to tell you something, Swifty.  I think you've found your place, and it involves playing to sold-out arenas and winning awards and traveling the world and being adored and tweeting entirely too often.  Sorry.  But I think your place is pretty darn established.

Which leaves me to beg... How does one go about finding their place?  If anyone has advice, I'd welcome it with open arms.

Until that point, I'm just going to keep singing this song and hoping that some miraculous "place" will appear out of the mist with big flashing lights around it.

Just so I don't miss it.

Here are the lyrics, if you'd like to commiserate with me.

A Place In This World"

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
Cause I'm still trying to figure it out
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
Trying to see through the rain coming down
Even though I'm not the only one
Who feels the way I do

[Chorus:]

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in
This world

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
And I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine
Could you tell me what more do I need
And tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
But that's ok

[Repeat Chorus]

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
But I'm ready to fly

[Repeat Chorus]